Having a bit of a tough day today. I wish I could just move on and let go but I just can't. Maybe it's now more my own limbo than anything else.
Ok, so having a low day. I helped out yesterday at a photoshoot - just to get my mind on other things. It was helpful - except that a weird thing happened. The photoshoot was of a band, who - at the end - invited us to the gig which is taking place in a couple of days. The photographer was like, "She doesn't want to go." Huh???
I went to the photographer's place afterwards just helping out with carrying the equipment. Again, before leaving he said, "I will give the manager your name, but if you don't want to go don't feel you have to."
I said, "yeah - put my name down and I'll see how I feel - thx."
So much for GALing! It's hard not to take this personal!!
So, what does this have to do with my M? Nothing directly - only that after I left, I was like, my H isn't around, my 'friends' aren't around, what's going on? I suddenly feel like a leper or something!
Just having a tough day.
These are the days that make me wonder what the hell am I doing hoping and waiting. Maybe I should just get on with the heartbreak, grieve and be done with it...and move on.
