I know you have been letting her initiate alot of the contact, let her continue to do so.

You need to live your life.

Move forward knowing that you have no control over our w's feelings or wants. You cannot show her anything. You cannot make her love you, contact you, or want to be part of your life.

So move forward with what is now. This is not giving up. It is accepting where your r is with your w. And know that the only way your m will even recon is if your w puts in the work.

There will be pain.. and it won't go away for awhile. I sometimes think I am giving up on my m.. but I'm not. I know I am open to recon but there is NOTHING i can do at this point.

I have changed alot. It's up to my w to see that... it's up to her to move towards me.

And if she ever does.. I will address it then.

((()))

M(f): 40
D'ed: 8/12

Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.

Love at all costs because you are loved well.