You know, as i have been reading posts from the last several hours on yet another Friday evening, i keep seeing one thing that keeps coming up and I can't quit thinking about it. These posts talk about GAL to be happy for yourself. Do things you enjoy to be happy. What if one of the keys to my happiness comes from being M, having a family, a W, kids...? Before I met my wife, I was happy, but I was missing something. The day I met her, something changed. The one thing that had been missing in my life finally showed up. I mean, I had an amazing family, friends, hobbies, a good job. And when we got married, something happened that I don't know if I can explain. It was as if God gave me W and D. I know the saying that you are the only one that can make yourself happy. but what if having the bond of M and family is the only thing I need to be happy. Regardless of what happens, I know that life will go on. That I will be "happy" again. That all the other things that I enjoy doing will still be there. But the one thing that truly defined who I wanted to be or what I wanted more than anything is slowly being torn away and there is nothing I can do about it.
I'll never regret meeting my wife because she and D are the best thing that ever happened to me. But I feel that I wish I never met her or at least she would have let me know that she didn't have the same expectations that I did. I mean, we talked, in depth for months about everything. And now, the happiness that I want most, will never be.
