Still Afloat and moving Forward

[BeingMe]

Braveheart ... just saw that you had posted on May 26, and I thought I would respond to your remarks.

There's always a possibility that I won't leave. I have so much going on with GAL, that him being home occasionally is irrelevant to me. We do go out to friends, maybe a movie, even dinner, but there's no romance ... we talk about our kids, and his work. Whatever. Sometimes D19 or S25 will come with, and I like that we can chat to them, and catch up with their lives. We still are in separate bedrooms ... I don't see that changing.

I'm not going to lie, or kid myself ... I do want to be married to H, but not like it was before. We do consider ourselves S'ed at this point, but we are friendly (don't trust him enough to call him a friend per se). If we ever R, it would have to come from him. I will not make the first step, except to leave.

That's where we stand as of now. Thanks for always responding, and you do give me much to think about. I appreciate your honesty and, yes, even the 4X2's. I honestly don't think I resent him anymore ... not for a long time. If I do, it's on a fleeting sitch by sitch, not that deep resentful ache, that most of us had after the bomb.