Journaling- sometimes its hard to stay positive and upbeat and. It fall into victim mode.

But I think DB is about learning how not to be a victim anymore. Not do what we have been doing that got us where we are today.

I alwYs thought I needed a man to 'save' me to protect me to support me. Therefore I became needy.

That thought process meant I was always trying to PLEASE yet because I was holding so much in I was being passive aggressive.

So messed up.

This is one of the scariest things I have done. And I know it's only the beginning to more of life's rude awakenings.

I want to gt faith back in my heart and finish digging myself out of this hole I have dug for the past 35 years

TPS
Me: 44 H: 42
M14 T17
S10 D7
10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month
21/04/12 H is 'DONE'
04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010)
July '14 H ends affair
May '15 H moves back home