[LITB]

Let me pick up about where I left off yesterday. From March until the last couple of weeks, our contact was limited.

At the end of April, we were scheduled to have a status update meeting with the judge. I had reviewed the settlement agreement one last time and my attorney sent it to my W’s attorney for their review. They didn’t get back to us with their changes or even to let us know when we could expect it. My L requested a continuance, which was granted. Our next status update meeting was scheduled for today, June 1, 2012.

Note: I kept pushing the D back as I have been seeking employment in NM, but my attorney and I decided it was time to get the D finalized. It was supposed to be finalized at the end of September.

During one of our convos, my W told me that she wouldn’t be able to review the agreement until the end of June. I saw it as a sign, but didn’t expect anything of it. As far as I knew, she was still in a R with OM. Honestly, I was ready to have it behind me and move forward with my life. The ball was in her court as far as our legal proceedings. I wasn’t worried about it. I was living as if we were D anyway.

As I mentioned a few posts back, I let my W know that I wouldn’t be participating in doing birthday parties together. Our S6 birthday was in April. She had his birthday party the weekend before his birthday and I flew down the following weekend to celebrate it with he and our D9. That worked great. Our D9 birthday was last Saturday, again my W had her birthday party the previous Saturday. However, since our D9 birthday fell on a Saturday and it was the same weekend that I was bringing our children back to California, we decided to spend it together as a family. It was a compromise that I was willing to make.

Two weeks ago today, I called to speak with our children. My W was not home from work yet, so she answered the call. This is how she answered, “Well hello there, what do I owe the pleasure of getting a call from you.” I just laughed. I didn’t say what I was thinking. My thought was, “I didn’t call to talk to you. I called to talk to D9 and S6”.

She asked me to hold on as she shut down her computer. The call was positive and general. After the call, we exchanged a few text messages. There was some flirting in our exchanges. So the signs were there.

I’m going to jump to my R with my GF. The week before my trip to NM, she let me know that she was not comfortable with us spending time as a family for my D9 birthday. I understood and could respect that, however I wasn’t going to allow someone else to influence my decisions when it comes to my children. I also knew that if there were any chance to reconcile, that my R with my GF stood in the way. I couldn’t give my GF all she wanted from me. It wasn’t fair to her and it wasn’t fair to our children. It’s one of the things that I regret, because I broke her heart. I ended things with her on May 22nd. It sukked, but I felt relieved.

That gets me caught up all the way to last weekend.