Try this on for size. What if you built that bridge simply for you, to prove you can, just to try to love him a little more and practice loving in case there's someone else in your future.
Ad has given me similar advice recently. If someone had told me this in the beginning I would definitely have thought DOORMAT. But now I see it's not about my H at all. I took it to mean me having the ability to love in spite of. Or at least try to love in spite of. I hadn't really been doing that, just going through the motions.
I put this into action recently by doing something nice for my H just because. It was something I would have not hesitated to do before, but hadn't done in a long time. I found myself smiling while doing it, and doing it with no real expectations. Something else I hadn't done in a long time. And it felt GOOD.
