I have just read all your posts and everyone on here can relate to how you're feeling. Some people are further down the recovery route than you and have so much good advice... as hard as it is, listen to the advice. I'm at the early stages of my marriage problems and my emotions are all over the place. I've felt resentful, angry, isolated , misunderstood etc but I am so reassured that other people on this site can totally relate to my situation. You have to stop questioning why your W left you, it's so self-destructive. Accept that you might never understand why. Start believing that you can take tiny steps to recovery. Focus on yourself, let go of analysing and questioning everything your W has said/done. You cannot control someone else's thoughts but you can totally control your own. Positive thinking is extremely powerful, push out all the negative thoughts, keep busy and take control back. Good luck
