Thank you Jack that means more than you probably know. A lot of time I feel like I'm floundering or like its all a little too late or maybe I'm playing the fool. I don't know much all I really know is how I feel and what I'm doing. And that's why I said the crystal ball thing. I'm not ready to move on and I do want to be his friend.
He didn't come tonight. I was fine. I had a good night. I had a fantastic time and was proud of the way I acted. It was very flattering to be able to turn someone down.
So Jack thinks I'm doing the right thing that's good to hear. 20 30 40 years from now I want H in my life he will always be special to me.
Oh and I've always had more guy friends than girls haha I've thought I was a more guy than chick for a long time! LOL so stick with me!
