Hopefully I can continue from earlier w/o getting off track.
So now, I am really confused about what I should do... I want nothing more than to save M. But I feel that my W really does want a D. She is relieved that she doesn't have a H around and feel guilty for her feelings of not being a good wife. She has been very clear that she has checked out and she is done.
After work and the reassurance that we could wait to have our talk, I called my confidant on way home. This person is totally honest with me and doesn't hold back, which I respect. I told them that I changed my mind about just giving in and signing papers, that even though I do want W to be happy, there is no way I could live with myself if I just gave in. Not to my surprise, I was told I was a fool, my W doesn't love me, there is no future or hope, and that I would be wasting 2 years out of my life, but that whatever decision I make is respected. Great, but alot of that convo weighs on my brain everyday. I know how my W feels. I know that there is little chance that she will come back and she will be moving on with her life without me in it. But, even though there is very little chance of W changing her mind, I would rather take that small chance than live the rest of my life knowing that I gave in.
But on the other hand, am I forcing my W unhappiness by not giving her what she wants?
