Yeah, that is pretty much the conclusion that I have come to these days. I guess the thing of it is needing the validation. After 9 months of what seems like unrelenting rejection the ol' self esteem and ego are pretty much in the toilet. Would be nice to feel attractive or "wanted" again - even if just for a little while.
Something that 25 said (and has said historically to me and others) has been chipping away at me. "She has to believe that marriage to you from this day forward can be different, better". I agree fully with that statement. I just wonder if at this point she has the capacity to believe that still. I would like to think so, but I have no realy way of knowing. Has my situation drifted past the point of hope?? I so want to post some of the things she said in her letter to me....maybe I will later - but it was nothing but appreciation and all of these wonderful things I did to make her life better. Just seems so contradictary to other actions. It made/makes my head spin.
