Needing some guidance... 3

[jks]

I think I'm going to give it until the end of June. If H is still doing the same thing, meaning, sleeping over at OW's, inviting her to family functions, not contacting me and not talking about reconciling then I am going to re-evaluate. And I will probably be moving forward by filing.

At that time, it would probably be best to use the LRT, right? Give him the ultimatum? I honestly know that I cannot go another 6 months doing this. Even to go another month is pure torture.

Granted, I will still have to hear about OW from my kids but then I can at least accept it, because I know that I'm not working towards reconciling anymore. So what he does with her, is his business.

What he's doing right now, is so blatantly disrespectful, especially after all the things that he's told me recently. I feel like I'm just being taking advantage of. I feel like in a way, I'm being a coward. Like my self-esteem is so low that I don't have the dignity to just move forward without him. It's getting to the point of being completely embarrassing. And to know that his family is on board and supporting it, is just downright maddening.

I am devastated by this everyday.