I'm not hurt. Well maybe a tiny bit. I figured out that I was sad that he felt he couldn't open up to me or share his life with me. But I feel like that's because of two reasons in the past I've offered my advice or given my opinion on things and second his whole life at the moment revolves around her. So he can't tell me anything because it would include her and he wants to spare my feelings. So I imagine I ask him that and it opens up a huge door of what should or shouldn't I tell her. And then he gets reminded that something might upset me and then he doesn't know what to say.
Which in a weird way that realization made me smile because I'm happy I have many things in my life that are all about me.
On the plus side he was making jokes and very happy and nice. I wasn't sure of the response I'd get. I don't think he'll stop and take a second look until something goes bad in his current R.
I do think when I look at myself at how different I am from a year ago. I've lost 46 pounds, I quit smoking, I don't get drunk, I'm not posting loads on FB for attention, I've made my house a happy, homely place, I've become a great cook, and I have really exciting career prospects. I'm proud of this. Day by day my love life is becoming a smaller part of who I define myself as.
