So took a big and very scary step today. W has been out looking through rental homes and so I said that is fine but if you are at that stage than I intend to have my pay deposited into an account of my own and I will transfer money for mortgage, food and stuff for kids into the joint account. I am not sure if I was serious at the time but now I am. She reacted badly saying I am trying to take everything from her and this was not fair. It seemed then that she was actually really worried about her situation and if her decision was right. I was actually feeling pretty good then and thought I definitely have to go through with that otherwise I will not be taken seriously and I will.
However, today I come home and walk in put my keys on the bench near her phone and a text message comes through from her sister whom she is flying out to see for 3 days this weekend. I of course stupidly glance at what it says. It says that the guy hey discussed is coming to their night and is perfect for W and he is keen and they should hook up. Iam furious. She has sworn black and blue that there is no one else and she is not out looking so I stupidly confront her. She is all denial and I would never do that and so on. Now i feel like I may have pushed her to do just that and go try this meat head just to piss me off. I honestly now believe there is no going back for us and she will never let us be together again. It hurts bad
