Just read your sitch. I am realtively new here too, but it seems like you are handling things by taking control and being very honest with yourself.
I also like how you are appproaching this awful situation we are all in
Embracing ambiguity. I struggle with anxiety at times and can be very rigid with routines. I am calming down and starting to accept there are things I can't control and am striving to be more at ease with uncertainty.
I am very VERY similar to you in this regard. Its been one of my toughest challenges to deal with. Not letting the anxiety and unknown pull me into another depression.
Also, the passive aggressivness--i too held in a lot of resentment towrds H for many years, and in the meantime never 'saw' how unhappy he was. I never 'saw' how my reactions were affecting him.
Stay focused. I'll be here.
Bustingout
TPS Me: 44 H: 42 M14 T17 S10 D7 10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month 21/04/12 H is 'DONE' 04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010) July '14 H ends affair May '15 H moves back home
