In-Home Separation, One Year Point

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adinva.. all the feelings you have mentioned above.. i have gone through. i felt very betrayed.. very angry.. at the MC when we talked about telling the kids, i wanted him to ensure he said.. "i decided" because i most certainly did not support his decision.

i didn't think H gave our M a fair shot.. i felt everything he was doing was so horribly wrong for our family.. for our kids.. i ran through thoughts of.. you are the one who had the PA and now i'm the one begging you to stay???

i think i just came to a point where i realized this is not who i am. early in our situation.. i read a R book and one of the exercises was to consider what was a value we had in ourselves. i remember at that time that one of the most important things to me is that i live a life full of compassion and empathy. and who i was being towards H was none of these.

i think you're incredibly beautiful and strong. our situations differ that my H doesn't stay here and perhaps that's why it's been easier for me. i don't know if i could be as kind towards my H as you have been with yours if he continued to be here everyday distancing himself.

we all do the best we can with what we've been given. the blessing of these boards is that sometimes we're given just a bit extra..

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