i love who i have rediscovered. i am a caring, compassionate individual who truly feels no remorse for the choices i made in trying to save my marriage. i committed to the best of my abilities to fight for what i believed in and still believe in.
i harbour no ill will towards H. i love him. he is a good person. he needs to find himself.. and i love him enough.. and myself enough.. to wish him the very best.
i didn't know where this journey would lead me. i know i didn't think it would lead me here. but this is where i am.
Man, bf...this is so profound and gorgeous!
I completely believe that the pain we are faced with in our lives is where all of the important lessons we need to learn are. So many of us lose our sense of Self in relationships...we lose that delicate balance between *being* with and loving another and maintaining our own identity. As difficult as it is to go through these uncertain times, we are re-awakened and ideally reacquainted with the love we need to have for ourselves. Without it, we simply cannot enjoy healthy relationships with others.
Bless you, bf...you have so much courage and strength.
M-40 H-39 M- 12 years T- 20 years Separation: 5-8-12; H says he wants to pursue divorce
