I know why I feel like I am being wishy washy on whether or not to let STBXW twist in the wind or not. It still comes down to is it MLC or not for me.
If it is MLC, then I chance her cake eating; I get hurt (if I have expectations, which I don't at this point); and she keeps hiding in the tunnel.
If it isn't MLC and is just a WAW, then I have missed a crucial point of showing compassion and a chance to say that I have truely done all I think I could do for her.
Either way I think that I am being a person only a fool would leave. I just need to get over the fact that I could be getting used and that would be her issue and only makes me a better person for still giving her an opportunity to earn a little trust after all that has happened.
It is also a chance to show my OWN changes and practice my OWN boundaries.
A good friend once told me that the way to true grace is through humiliation. I need to do this for myself, not just for her.
M:35 W:33 M: 5 yrs. Daughter: 2 yr .7/11/10 D Final: 8/7/12
