Hi Zig, YES you are so right if no one else is saying it that you have to do it. We have to stop looking outside and do it for ourselves.
Last week I was saying things like I have to accept that he may never come back or if he does he won't have worked on issues. Almost like I was convincing myself. Now I honestly feel like "the future" isn't even something I think about.
I still have moments where I think about him. Wonder if what he's doing. I hear about events and wonder if he and his GF are doing that. And then I remind myself of when he told me he had a "very busy weekend" and I imagined him doing all sorts of things with her from camping to family bbq's. And what was he really doing? helping GF move in old dirty ripped jeans and spending 5 hours waiting for a tow truck. Not very exciting. So my imagination probably invents a more exciting life than he really leads and I need to leave that alone.
