When it's a one-way street...part 6

[adinva]

Thanks CV and I agree with you. I got to a place in life where I was getting kind of stagnant and this really shook things up - I'm glad for that.

To answer your question, my answers are frustrating you because they're not getting to the point of what you want. But I'm suggesting that you don't want the right thing for the point you're at. You don't want to build trust on a weak foundation, and you're the foundation. You don't want to build trust with someone who's not ready to be there for you, and your H is not.

So I'm saying I can/will sustain this R indefinitely until I decide I'm done with it. I'm hoping that my internal happiness draws my H back to wanting to work things out with me, making the affair irrelevant at that point. I'm recognizing that that may never happen and it may need to be me that ends things. But for now, I have a lot of work to do and I'm not looking so much at H.