Something The Boys And I Have Noticed

[AntoniaB]

You are still entirely wrapped up in what she is doing/analyzing her moves/motives/etc.

I don't know if you have blocked her on FB but if not, that's a huge source of the problem. In addition, people around you need to stop informing you of what she does. You can't handle it. You go very far south when you hear anything.

You are living your life with the hope that somehow she will come out of her MLC problem and fix everything. But she has been so vile to you, you shouldn't want her to fix things. The idea that you want her to fix things/set your world right despite the fact that she has brought so much abuse onto you says one thing: it says that for some reason, you value yourself very little, that you would be willing to take the abuse to be with her.

Why???

I'd put some energy into exploring why you'd allow a relationship that was so destructive inot your life as opposed to just being "single."

There is nothing wrong with being single. Tons of people thrive this way.