Oh Tad, I feel for you. I really do.

I know how very difficult it is to understand.

But this is the way it is right now. And no amount of asking why is going to change it.

So, you have two choices. You can continue to focus on your xw and lament about what was and what your plans were, but, that is not serving you well. Or you can begin to accept that you only have control over you.

Tad, life is so very short. And you are wasting precious time not living.

Pick one thing that you are interested in or a place you always wanted to go to. Put all your energies into making it a reality to try it or go there.

It will give you something to look forward to.

Your xw is pulling all the strings.

I say get a scissor and cut them.

You have so much to be thankful for.

Get to gettin' sweetie.