First and foremost you're not planning on doing anything harmful to yourself, are you?
Is this the same om that she's been seeing? If it is, think about this for a second. Why would she now be declaring that she's so in love when she's been seeing him for over a year? Something doesn't smell right.
I believe the other posters are right. You may have been set up. One thing I have learned from Snodderly and others is just to sit quietly. Answers do come and things aren't always as they appear. You have been so focused on your XW you haven't had time to sit quietly. Remember that sitting quietly doesn't mean that you can't continue to move forward.
One thing you haven't quite got yet and that is that you have choices in all this. You have a choice in how this affects you and how you react to it. You're letting your X spin you like a top. Stop it!
Why don't you have any hopes or dreams? So, you've had to build a new life for yourself. We've all had to. Are you really going to let your XW have so much of your power that you quit functioning? What does this say about you to your sons? Tad, where is your spirit?
Be that man only a fool would leave. The only way to do that is to take the focus off your XW and put it back where it belongs, ON YOU.
