My Story So Far. Is this even worth saving?

[timbits]

Thanks so much, ladies. Again, I really appreciate your feedback.

I'm feeling much better today. I had a great night sleep and work was busy, but productive, so I'm happy there.

I've been wanting to take a cruise of Scandanavia and the fjords for a long time. I'm checking them out online and the price isn't too steep, so I think I'll have to look into booking a trip. I'll see if I can make it a girl's trip with some friends. Sounds like a time. Won't be until next year, though, because I've booked up my vacation time with my sister's wedding. We were planning on going to Florida and Disney World for my birthday in January (my parents snow bird down south and are in Florida for 3 months, so they offered to fly H and I down for my birthday gift), but that might change. I haven't decided anything yet.

I'm going to check with a few friends who like to travel and see what they think. It would be a really fun time.

I'm not as angry today. I got a bit out yesterday and it's simmered down for the moment, but I'm sure it will pop back up. I'm trying to remain calm, not get angry with H so he gets defensive and just show him that things have changed in other ways. He was supposed to go to a friend's house tonight to play a game, but I think it was cancelled. I was actually kind of looking forward to going. Tomorrow night my mom is having an Epicure party (kind of like a tupperware party but for spices and cooking products). I'm looking forward to that, as well.

Things are looking up, but I'm still in a bit of turmoil. It really hurt to read that email. I felt like such an idiot reading that after we had such a good weekend. My IC said that I would still have been happy if I hadn't have read that email and that I don't know when those emails were written. H and his friend have a tendency to keep an email chain going where they write to each other every six weeks or so and I was so upset by what I read earlier in the chain that I didn't look at the dates. She said that she doesn't think I should check to see the dates, that snooping like that will only upset me (and I agree) and that while I absolutely have a right to be angry, I shouldn't be upsetting myself when I know that's all to be gained.

I really like my IC. We get along well. She said if I wasn't her patient, we'd probably be good friends because we have similar interests and she loves my dry sense of humour. That also makes me feel good knowing that someone else thinks I might be a nice person. I feel so badly about myself that it's difficult not to feel like everyone else thinks I'm a moron as well.