Hi, CV, I feel the same way, that I am much happier when I don't hear from my H. My guess is because when he is around and/or we have contact it reminds me that things are not as I want them to be and that I feel rejected by H. In short, seeing him is like him putting a big mirror in front of him that reflects back at me and how I am feeling about myself. When he is gone, I am not as directly confronted by my flaws or how I contributed to the problems in our marriage or how much I really miss him. That's how I view it anyway. Hope this helps in some way.
