I don't want to be right. I've been right before. It s@cks.
I do want to be happy. I find I'm happiest when I'm not around H. Why is that? If it's something about ME, then why am I happiest when I'm not around HIM? What is wrong about me that only comes out when I'm around him? Where does "it" go when he's not there? Why don't I find the same dissatisfaction/unhappiness in my other R's? Why does my generally happy self disappear when I get with him? Do I just dislike him to my core being and that taints everything?
