Thank you for your post. I read your stitch the other day and I do see what you are talking about in terms of our similarities. Hug hug. I am glad we found each other :-)
And I will read the thread you recommended. Solace is always welcomed.
Well.. H called for the first time in over two weeks.
I actually found two missed calls from him on the phone and just as I was looking at them the house phone rang.
Thankfully my daughter answered because I was starting to panic ( act as if! Be upbeat! Sound happy! Sound vague! Sound sincere! Hang up first! Ahhhhh!)
Well...she did the obvious thing ' when are you coming home daddy'
Ater she spoke to him she said ' here mommy wants to talk with you' and gave me the phone ( she also said that daddy said hen would meet us at the start of our summer holiday in two weeks) I waited a 30 seconds to compose myself...
I think I did it. Upbeat - was also a little disinterested, when he asked how I was i just said 'good!' I didn't ask him how he was, where he has been what he is doing, when he is coming or where he is going. Phew.
He asked about how things are going in the country I just said 'hot!' and he said that summer plans are confirmed ( I was a bit concerned that he wouldn't book them as promised a month ago)
He lingered. Sounded subdued. I didn't respond to it. When his questions stopped, and there was silence I remembered to end it first so said ' well I gotta go am in the middle of a movie with D'.
I have to say I was shaking the whole time. And after words I felt like throwing up!. I actually tried to centre myself by meditating ...but I actually don't know how to meditate ! Lol just know I am supposed to find my third eye or something. Lol
Anyway- it by no means changes anything or means anything...but I am pleased I have stayed on my DB path. I needed that call to continue busting.
I still don't know where he is (didn't ask...act as if I don't care), but it seems like I will see him when we start the summer holidays.
Will cross that bridge when we get there I suppose.
Ok I have to go now...( no am not DB ing you! Lol), but D is waiting to play.
Will be back later. X
Busting out
TPS Me: 44 H: 42 M14 T17 S10 D7 10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month 21/04/12 H is 'DONE' 04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010) July '14 H ends affair May '15 H moves back home
