I figured that if I didn't demand those traits eventually I'd just get walked all over again. I also figured that if I just moved to another relationship I was bound to make the same mistake again. So rather than seek another woman to have the marriage I always wanted, I decided to stay with the one I'm with and love and build the marriage here and now.
Wish he'd done that.
Well NC was broken right after I posted.....by him. He texted and asked if I'd heard anything from the Doc. I gave him the latest and asked how he was. "Oh I'm fine. Just wanted to see if you knew anything yet. Shame they can't seem to nail it down" I replied and agreed it was annoying and told him a very short funny event I saw happen today. No reply.
I miss that friendship we were starting to develop pre bomb (even if it was clouded with my expectations) I realized that he wasn't sharing anything about his life possibly because the last time he did he was met with the mayor of crazytown. I just kept thinking you can't talk yourself out of a situation you acted your way into. If I want him to be my friend and see that I won't act crazy about his choices then I just have to show him that.
Bug, I totally agree about the we were the person to pursue to start the car to drive it around haha. And I don't know if I want the man who at the very least say hey I want you back. I do however think that in our positions they rebuild that trust with us and I worry that NC means I am walking. I dunno. I'm staying the course.
