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This is where I wonder if going NC is the right thing. Because I worry that it shows him that I'm walking away again. I don't really know.


This was niggling in my brain.

It seems that you and I have been the pursuers in our Ms. NC is very scary for us because in our history, if we didn't turn the key in the engine, nothing happened.

So if I'm not turning the key, nothing will happen. This makes me nervous. Maybe if I just jiggle the key a little...


Maybe had I waited longer before, he would have come back. Who knows?

It is a scary place but he has the power to jump-start this if he chooses.


Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss