if you could say those words to her - and believe me, when i read them i saw what you are made of, and they didn't scare her off - you are on the right track.
what you said was beautiful, ces.
what you need to do, is just RELAX into the unfolding of it. don't be the runner who trips right before the finish line because they are looking at the end so hard.
enjoy and savor every little minute of this. decide in your mind that the now is more important than the future
and tell us more of things like this, so that when we are all at the stage you're at now, we'll know the right things to say and do
from what you wrote - the keeping quiet, not reacting at all the correct moments- i may not be where you are (in my own working on myself) but to me it looks like only when you reached the point where you are capable of handling this time, can it be given to you and can it come to you.
the old you would have rushed this. TRUST that the person you are now, knows exactly what to do or say or be when it's needed.
it's as much about trusting YOURSELF as it is about trusting HER
it really makes my day to read what you wrote. and i hope you both have a beautiful day together tomorrow. and don't forget to throw a big ole shovelful of humor into the mix. laughing together is very healing
zig
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"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"
