I can say from personal experience that both your husbands loved you enough to put you (and your decisions) first. There were many times where I (mistakenly) yielded to her in order to keep the peace, or in some ways "spoil" her. I wanted her to have what she wanted, eat what she wanted, and do what she wanted to do.
In turn I got labeled as spineless, and rewarded with a WAW. Trust me I can really empathize with your husbands, and don't blame them for what they did. If theyre anything like me they were probably raised to unconditionally love someone, and did not receive unconditional love in return. So they acted out. Now they're seeking someone to do what they expected you to do.
I'd be there too had I not found this site and others.