25- I understand why he would see me as the reason why he is not with his kids. In fact a part of me feels that too. I messed up and forced him away. My kids are not living with him becaus of me.

A part of me can see how that is twisted, but i have felt that. That because of what has happened, because I was not the bestvi could be, in was not therefore the best mother I could be by protecting my kids from a broken family.

I am not fully detached. But I am doing things differently by not contacting him.

But he has not called or come back so he actually has not been able to hear a happy me or see a happy me ( even the act as if happy me).

25- thank you again. I keep terracing your post to learn more.

Busting out

TPS
Me: 44 H: 42
M14 T17
S10 D7
10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month
21/04/12 H is 'DONE'
04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010)
July '14 H ends affair
May '15 H moves back home