In-Home Separation, One Year Point

[sweetbabyred]

I wish I could tell h how much better equipped I am now to be a partner to him, but that's not db and it wouldn't work. He has to realize it on his own.

I completely understand. This past year has forced me to confront some of my tendencies that I've discovered I don't really like about myself. I've learned to force myself to try new things, because I usually do like them once I've given it a try.

And I've definitely learned what it means to be a good partner to someone. In the past I was way too independent and we weren't enough of a team together.

So I know that if we did try again, things wouldn't be like they were before because I am a completely different person than I was last year and that's a good thing.

But it can be very frustrating to know that I may never get the chance to show him.

At least I know that the next relationship I'm in, with H or someone else, will have a better shot because of everything that has happened. I may not have asked for this situation, but I will do my best to learn from it.