My Story So Far. Is this even worth saving?

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Had a pretty good weekend with H. Friday night I had a nail appointment, then we went out to dinner. I then went home to relax and he went to a friend's house to play video games. He came home around 2am, had a good time. I had a nice, relaxing weekend, which I really crave after a long week at work.

Saturday, H did some medical billing he does for his cousin who is a doctor (he works about 2 hours a week and gets paid about $250-300 biweekly) and I went out shopping with my mother for some spring clothes. I came home and H was doing some yard work for his parents. We then went to a friends house for the evening for a BBQ. H was a little distant, but he tends to do that when we are with a group of people (it's like he forgets I'm there). We came home and went to bed. H wanted to go right to sleep, but I wanted to chat for a bit in bed. I really miss that, talking about everything and nothing before we drift off to sleep.

Sunday we had a lovely day. We went out shopping for some summer clothes for H. He's gone from a 56 waist to a 38 in one year and didn't have any shorts. After that, we went to a movie and got some groceries. We grilled some steaks and had a lovely meal together. Then we relaxed again for the evening.

Today was like old times. H was affectionate and when we were walking from the parking garage to the movie theater, he offered me his arm, which he hasn't done for a while. Usually he whines that I'm walking too slowly. H is 6 ft 3.5. He has much longer legs than I do. Anyway, it was very nice. He put his arm around me during the movie, it was a horror movie and it made me jump. It was really nice to have the physical touch from him. He was silly with me today, seemed much happier, like he was having fun with me. Conversation went very easily today, not forced at all.

We're both really looking forward to the mini-vacation in a few weeks. We have also decided to get a cat when we return. The friend we visited on Saturday night is looking to give her cat away (she can't keep him in her rental). I love this kitty, so sweet. But she doesn't want to give him away to someone she doesn't know, wants to know he's taken care of and loved. Well, H and I decided to take him in.

We talked briefly on the way to the movie and H said that from June of last year to now has been a very difficult year. His great grandfather passed away on Saturday. It wasn't unexpected. He was 101 and was slowing down in the past few months. He just went into a nursing home 2 weeks ago (he was still living on his own, chopping wood for his woodstove every day). H wasn't devastated, but he was when his grandfather passed away last June (great grandfather's son). H was very close to him and found it difficult when he passed. Then he got the OK for his book and started losing weight, but met OW and dealt with the EA/PA and it's demise. He's been a bit of a mess since then.

While we were talking about it (he brought it up, I've been trying not to bring up our relationship), he said, "I thought this year would be amazing but it's been the worst year of my life". I said, "Well, why not make this year amazing? The books being launched, you're fit and healthy and have lots of energy and we're taking a great trip in a few weeks". It seemed to sink in when I said that. He seemed happy after the conversation, and that's when he was more affectionate with me.

I'm hopeful, but I know that the rollercoaster ride isn't over yet. It makes me almost apprehensive to think about what will happen next. I just want him to be happy. I just want to be happy.

I am happy about the kitty....
I've been waiting to have another pet for about 5 years. Really looking forward to having a fuzzy little jerk around the house again.