Ah, yes...its pretty difficult since he is not open to counseling right now. One thing I've learned in life is people have to want to reach out/accept help. No one else can do that or *make* another person want to do it.
You on the other hand, have a wonderful well of strength within you! Perhaps on some level your strength, resilience and growing sense of self intimidate your H right now? You're making things work for YOU...taking a craptastic sitch and learning from it in very positive ways.
M-40 H-39 M- 12 years T- 20 years Separation: 5-8-12; H says he wants to pursue divorce