There are times when I ask myself if I have tried everything... and I'm sure the answer is no... because some times I'm not quite sure what everything is....
.. so instead of saying everything... I ask myself "Did I honor my vows to her?".
For sickness and in health, richer or poorer, goodtimes and bad.
Did I do my best to love her when at times she seemed unlovable?
Did I do my best to not intentionally hurt her?
Did I push myself to get past my anger to see her perspective?
Did I give her space and let her go?
Do I work hard to forgive her?
Do I love her enough to say... I want you to be happy.. even if that's not with me?
And I feel for the most part... I did. I am not perfect and sometimes my intentions are influenced by my emotions..
..but I keep trying.. even as I grow near to signing my papers..
.. and because I keep trying to honor her and my vows... that is me "trying everything".
M(f): 40 D'ed: 8/12
Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.
