It's frustrating for me to comment on your sitch because I feel like you're so angry and hurt you're not really going to hear anything...if that makes sense.
Love true love forgives and accepts and supports even when the person isn't doing what you want them to do.
You can't change how she feels, what she thinks or what she wants to do. It's a very very very hard thing to accept. The only thing you can change is how you feel about the sitch. Being angry isn't going to mend any fences. It's fine to see that there are things in the M that didn't work but it sounds like you're giving her all the blame and taking no responsibility. And on top of that you want her to take away all your hurt by apologizing to you and working to get your forgiveness.
What are you doing to work through your anger, bitterness, and resentment?
