brit, sorry for hijacking... I'm just in such a dark place!

Then how is fighting to save your marriage not controlling. From what you are saying, throw in the towel, let her go her way, and wait on the back burner until if and when she comes back??

Part I cannot get over is how someone betray another so heinously, and be so selfish.

Some may say it is controlling, but there is very little different in me that when she was falling for me. She is the one that has completely changed, and I am getting blamed for not making the M work.