Do others feel like I do that at some point the WAS is going to realize what s/he is losing but by that time it will be too late? I have no intention of giving up on our M but mercy, sometimes it's so hard to keep the faith with all the crap raining down. Crap completely engineered by H.
Ahh, yes. Sometimes I do feel this is a possibility and the idea of the WAS coming to such a realization only it being too late creates a lot of angst in me. I don't know if its a good or bad sign, but I sometimes wonder if such a time does come, what if *I* truly feel there's no going back? Would that mean that H was right all along in doing what he did, regardless of the way he went about it?
This is where a sense of "positive uncertainty" is important to have. No matter where things end up, I have to believe that it will be the right outcome needed to happen at the time. I surrender my attempts to control and accept that everything always happens for a reason...even if it takes a while to understand why that was the reason.
M-40 H-39 M- 12 years T- 20 years Separation: 5-8-12; H says he wants to pursue divorce
