H said to me several times you're only going to be happy if I'm miserable. The truth is when he was miserable he never told me. So you have no idea how hurt your H is or what he's feeling.
If he is happy now it does NOT mean you are a loser or a failure. I doubt in 2 months of living away from you he's fully adjusted to being single and is happy and independent. It is a strange see saw we're on....convention tells us if he loves you he'd want to be with you. He'd be the man that will run through the rain and pound on your door because he can't take another minute without you. But everyone is confused in this situation. It's like H said he thinks of all the good and all the bad and can't see anywhere around the bad.
Focus on working on that part of you that feels unhappy. it's a rollercoaster!
