I have few different posts from Accuray bookmarked that really spoke to me. This is one about detaching when you don't want to and how to deal with the uncertainty:
I think for me I can't think about what will happen in 5 years there's many factors: will he give me a chance, will he trust me again, will he change the things that upset, it goes on and on and on top of all the confusion that he feels about that he also has feelings for someone else and has to weigh the possibilities of a new relationship and possible regrets over that with possible regrets of not giving us another chance.
So I have to do this solely for me. I have to take a new path which is non-pursuit, no manipulation, not being selfish, not sabotaging our friendship or his new R, I want to get through a day without beating myself up over something that happened between us or mistakes I made. That's my first goal.
