Had my brothers wedding on fri, it was a really lovely day and felt really good to be the other end of the country surrounded by my family whoi am enough for, just the way I am. Soothed my soul a bit, and I managed to do my reading only slightly crying!
On the H front, on the drive up there I had a long think. I know he won't get on with the divorce, he doesn't want to have to do it. I know I said about why should I, but I was so fed up of it all and thought I needed to do something to get me out of this limbo, and if that's a divorce then so be it. I can't believe I did it but I rang him and said fine, I'll do it, i dont want this any more either. And i really didnt. I asked him to drop the petition and marriage certificate in on his way to work and I'd sort it when I get back. That was on Thursday. I thought he'd jump at the chance. Just home today (Sunday), and he hasn't put them through the letterbox, although thurs, fri, sat and today he would have gone past my house, and known he wouldnt have had to see me. On the day of the wedding he sent me a photo of a bear he bought for me when we first got together. He rang me a couple of times the next day to see how it had gone. We've spoken today and he became quite teary at the end. Not sure why. He hasn't mentioned the divorce again and I have not brought it up.
