I just got caught up on your posts and wanted to thank you for dropping by on mine. Our sitch's are similar. You are doing the right thing by going out and reconnecting with people. As painful as this has been, you will feel better about yourself in the end. I know since my H left, I have felt like I've been through the wringer but every day that passed, I feel stronger with the realization that it's not just about surviving another day but becoming a different, better, happier and more at peace person.