Been a while I know. Been busy with a new job and continuing to do my best moving forward given the circumstances.
My S is an amazing 2 year old. So smart and full of life and it amazes me how he's looking more and more like me when I was little.
As for how my W is towards me (I still say W because I STILL have not gotten word back from the signed divorce papers - signed them back in January) it's been cordial to say the least. There are occasional moments of good conversation between the two of us, and I've been good on not initiating conversation. She's always asking how I'm doing and how my family is doing. Feels weird to see any sort of interest from her in that regard. Sometimes she's been down and I've just stopped asking because I know she'll just tell me she's fine.
Today I got to see my S, and noticed she was drawn to her phone a whole lot. In good timing my S decided to go outside on his own so in chasing him I got a peak at who she was texting. It was the supposed OM from way back. I shrugged it off but I won't lie that it did kind of sting, and I did want to mention something but I just decided to focus on S and let it be.
It's confusing sometimes to see this semi-interest from her with occasional smiles when I talk to her, and then know she is still talking to this loser. Its kind of like she wants the attention and when he isn't talking her, she seeks me out. I just focus on my son, because I know if anything is to work out, I have to stay on my path and if she wants to rejoin it, then its up to her and her alone.
