relief from what??? Having a Husband? having a family?

I know I am bitter, and I know that people say that they did nothing to cause the breakdown of M, but i can honestly say the big reasons for the breakdown of our M came from her end.

I will give you examples...

My W still sleeps with SD. She is almost 5.
No bed time for SD. They are up til after I went to bed.
W had problem with dual parenting roles. She only wanted me to be a dad when she felt is was necessary.
W had problems seperating our family as W and H, with the relationship she has with her family. She is more concerned with what is happening with her family than with us.
Even though she said spending time together was important for a M, she would never want to do anything, just the two of us.
As many dishes that i did, laundry that was washed and folded, bathrooms scrubed, and so on, I wasn't helping do what she needed. But if I tried to help with the things that "bothered" her, she would get frustrated that nothing else was getting done.. I could go on and on. Bottom line, she thought she wanted to be married, but she found out that she doesn't want someone in her life to that extent. She lied and destroyed another persons life in the process.

I am detaching... in a couple hours, it will be 48 hours of NC. Very hard because all I am thinking about is what she is doing, are they all right, and "when is she going to wake up"

I am sure they are ok and im not blind to realize that she may never see it the same way I do. But it still doesn't make the pain go away!