Brit, I feel your pain. It sounds like you are living my life. I have cried everyday since the beginning of March.
I keep thinking I wish I could just hear what she is thinking about the whole situation.
I do understand what you mean about choosing a different path. If that is what u want, don't get into a R until you are ready. I know for me, I have already made peace with being alone. There is not way I could give what is needed in a R with the baggage I am carrying. It would not be fair to anyone involved.
It brought up a lot of bad memories for me about the whole self esteem issue. As all this has been going on in my life, I have become a different person. I have definitely felt that I am worthless when it came to being strong and confident. And even though this might be somewhat of my issue with moving on with my life, I have accepted this is what my future is.
