Optimistic...not hopeless! :)

[hopingandpraying]

I had my chance today to act as if!!! And I think I did a WONDERFUL job!!!

I had to meet my H so he could sign car refi papers for me. I dressed cute, but not too over the top, was nice, smiley, and even joked with him.

I kept it strictly business, had him sign the papers, and then we left the bank. He held the door open and I said "thanks!" I gave him a box of his belongings and scrapbooks that I have made him throughout the years...Marine ones and his military pictures.

I then called him when we left because I had forgotten to tell him something. We talked for like 5 mins on the phone about the house and about him graduating from college last weekend. I said "Congrats!" I said "Well, now off to get your Masters." He said "not yet, at least!" I said "Well, in time." He then said "Yeah when I figure out what I want to do with my life!"

He's still lost...I can tell! He came in wreaking of smoke...apparently he's picked up smoking because his girlfriend also smokes...that part makes me sad.

He said he would be in contact with me about when he'll come to pick up his things. He gave me a day next week, but I was not available so we'll see what other day he comes up with!

I just don't know what my next step is...stay dark?!?!