And one last thing for now.

I am still in the process of recognising my role in the demise of the M. And I know I still have a long way to go. But I can't even imagine that H would care again.

And now that I have been dark for two weeks, with no contact from H as well...does it even matter?

I want this M to work for my family to be intact again. But I don't want to go back to the way it was either. At least that's one thing H and I agree on....

TPS
Me: 44 H: 42
M14 T17
S10 D7
10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month
21/04/12 H is 'DONE'
04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010)
July '14 H ends affair
May '15 H moves back home