am i better off without him?

[needgrace]

Hi SS,

I have been thinking about you and hoping that you are having a better day today.

I am 51 and have felt that I do not want to start over at my age. It really helped me to read Pema Chodron, she is a Buddhist writer. This is one of her quotes:

“When things are shaky and nothing is working, we might realize that we are on the verge of something. We might realize that this is a very vulnerable and tender place, and that tenderness can go either way. We can shut down and feel resentful or we can touch in on that throbbing quality."

For me, I fought being in this place for a long time and held on for dear life to my W, which of course, pushed her further away. Now I do believe that I am in this place to grow in ways I never would have without it.

I have started putting post-its of quotes up around my home.. That seems to help get me back on track when I get scared and worry.

For today, I like one by Joseph Campbell: "We must be willing to let go of the life we've planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us."

((( )))