A bit of a tough morning. Had some strange dreams last night that disrupted my sleep.
This morning was getting S15 ready for his new job and taking him in. He is working at the marina where we have docked our boat for years. STBX is there this weekend and bumped into him when dropping off S15. He doesn't look well which makes me sad for the kids. He is clearly partying way too much and it is really taking a toll on him. Also found out that he is "hosting" visitors on our boat. Sigh
I really hope he is wise enough to be discreet when it comes to the boys, they will not be too happy if they catch wind.
I am not shocked because he was clearly seeing someone else while we were together, so it only makes sense that he is now. I guess it is frustrating because he has taken yet one more thing from me. The boat and marina were just as much mine, and it is a loss.
I think I am grieving a bit today. I know without a shadow of a doubt that I am making the right decisions and steps, just need to readjust my picture of what my future will be. It will be much brighter, just re-tuning my vision
